Introspection- Nah, complains

Hmm..Guess I think a lot today. Had a sudden urge to blog when I was in the bus. Kind of felt emoish.( Actually it has been a looong time since such feelings settled in). Probably it was due to the entire day's stress & unhappiness :/
Definitely felt upset with how the presentation went. Disappointed. Just want to use this space to complain. Actually I do complain a lot but when I was in the bus, I pondered about my attitude.Towards my group mates, towards my friends, towards my family and boyfriend. You could say I was reflecting. (Hey, I do think okay.)
I finally came to a conclusion. I have many faces. It's like the way I treat my group mate is more with authority (maybe without realizing, somewhat bossy). Since the responsibility of being a group leader was place upon my shoulders, I realize that if the project was to fail or be done badly, the fingers would probably be pointed at me. Or perhaps I just wanted a good grade.

Next, towards my friends I play a smiley role. I would seldom show my temper if possible. You know why? Course it is easier to fit in this way. I guess I would usually be the talkative one. Always talking and playing. I would not like to be seen alone for the fact that I love to belong.

To my family and boyfriend, it's more real and natural. Like tempers, tantrums and all those nonsense. I would then enjoy the quietness and privacy in my home.

I LOVE TO BE LOVED. who doesn't?

Overall, today it felt like an unlucky day. Really! hmm.. Maybe it was just my own nonsence. But! You know why I had this feeling? It was because today when I reached school and bought a curry puff, upon the first bite, the potato inside the curry puff dropped on my white shirt. Damn. This is the first sign of suayness.I know you might think that wth, it's just a curry stain.BUT! I had a presentation afterwards which i took it super seriously k. :( this is just the start of 'the series of unfortunate events'.

Afterwards, as I had mentioned, the project screwed up due to lack of preparedness. Damn it.
K la, I'm just whinny. I admit.

Depressed, I went to visit Chewy, he met with an accident with the bicycle and had 9 days MC. When I reached his house, he had just awoke. Felt some comfort. Though I wished he had accompanied me to the LRT after I had insisted and plead.. :( Felt alone and depressed. He was quite well already what... :(

Upon reaching home, bathed and sat down in front of the television. Turned it on and guess what:/ "POP". goes the television. Smoke emitted from the television.. Great day ain't it. :(

tomorrow's my birthday and I dun really feel happy:(